Dilemma :(

I'm in a HUGE dilemma. I don't know which to choose. I just can't decide. Or maybe, I just can't let go? Yea, so again, to let go is the hardest part.

Okay, most probably you don't even understand what I am talking about right now. So this is about 'chance'. I was wondering about taking the Chinese-In-Country-Program from Monash. Going to Shanghai to learn Chinese sounds really interesting to me. I can't deny that my desire to spend winter in Shanghai is unspeakably huge. I want to go there. I really want to go there. Well, I am considering the price too, since Australian Dollar is increasing, so it's a bit hard for me (the payment is in AUD). I asked my mother about it, I got a feeling that she'd let me go. I know since I was little, she's been forcing me to learn Chinese. So yea, the price wouldn't be any problem.

But the problem is...

The desire to go there suddenly fades away. It's because of JLPT. Okay let me tell you. JLPT stands for Japanese Language Proficiency Test. The test will be on 4 December this year. If I go to Shanghai, I won't be able to take the test. The next test will be held next year in July. I can't wait that long, while my teacher keeps asking me to join and my classmates were planning to take the test too.

If you're about to ask me, which one is more important to me, of course, JLPT is more important. It is what I called as starting step to reach my dream. BUT, if I take the test, it means I will miss the opportunity to go to Shanghai. I can't let the chance go. I want to go there too. And I want to take the test too. I am too greedy I guess. I know I have to choose either one, but I just can't. I really can't choose. I CAN'T!

About the Chinese-In-Program, this year is my only chance, since I am going to do my internship next year. So yea, what do you think, huh? Which one should I give up on? I don't know...

All I can do is to pray. Hoping that He'll answer my prayer.

(Oh ya, I am not able to join the Japanese Speech Contest since it is only for Malaysians. It's unfair no? I've spent hours to finish the composition of 900 words!)

~Asa~

In Love :)

These few days I kept listening to these two songs over and over again. The first one is Super Junior's "Mr. Simple". And the second one is "0330"-U-Kiss. I am so in love with these songs <3

This is "0330" by U-kiss.

And this one is "Mr. Simple" by Super Junior.

PS : I finally realized that EunHyuk is super cool! No wonder most of my friends like him so much.

Btw, I like Lee Ki Seop from U-kiss. He's a great dancer and he's super handsome! >.<

See ya. Gotta sleep now. I will be having morning classes tomorrow.

~Asa~

:(

I am having gastric pain. Trust me, it's painful enough to kill me. I feel like vomiting out everything inside my stomach. Well...

Don't worry. I'm okay. I feel better after drinking a cup of hot chocolate. But this reminds me of my mom.

I used to suffer from this pain since I was little. Usually it takes 3-4 days or sometimes it will take around 1-2 weeks to recover.

If my mom was here, she would take care of me, make me a cup of hot chocolate and accompany me until I fall asleep.

Somehow I feel so lonely. I need my mother. I miss her so much.

Five days ago was her birthday but I couldn't buy her any present. Seriously, I don't know what to buy. I don't have enough money to buy branded stuffs. Moreover, it will be too late if I give the present in semester break since I will only be going back this November :(

Sorry Mom. I am not a good daughter :(

But I indeed...

...love you.

~Asa~

New semester

My third semester in Monash started just around 3 days ago. This is still my first week, so I won't be really busy. But right after the labs start, sure I will be dead meat. I have three labs, as usual, and my time table is really packed. I am not even sure that I have time for lunch on Tuesday. Well it's okay. I am get used to it already since I have experienced something worse last semester. Or is this semester worse than last semester?  Err. I don't know. The only thing I know is I SURVIVE until now, but NEXT semester will be the WORST.

I repeat it. THE WORST.

I still insist on my own opinion that Food Science students should have more food subjects instead of having SCI 2010, or Recombinant DNA etc. So yea, the only subject I can enjoy (this is my first impression though) is only CHM 2962; Food Chemistry. And the rests... I almost fell asleep everytime the lecturers started to talk. The other subjects are boring. And I am not really interested in them too.

But this semester I'm wishing for better result. I should be more hardworking than EVER! Because I know if I still keep my lazy habits with me, I won't make any change. So yea, you understand what I mean right? And my surprise, some juniors said that I'm truly hardworking. First, I thought, "What kind of joke is that?" but then I heard my Japanese teacher said so and I came to a conclusion. I look like a hardworking girl, but in fact I am not. Pity, many people are  fooled by my look. LOL XD

By the way, I've signed up again for my Japanese class, since I stopped for likely 1-2 months. I just knew that I am now an "intermediate" student, no longer a "beginner". I am slightly happy, dunno why. Hehe. Maybe it means I am a step closer to my dream (to master Japanese soon).

Oh ya, I think I should be thrifty a bit. I've spent A LOT of money since I arrived here. I feel so guilty. But my mom said it's okay as long as I spent it in a right way (I mean for Japanese class, accommodation, food and other necessities, not like shopping branded stuffs etc.) Oh yea, and watching movies is a necessity for me :P

Well then. I should end it here or else somebody's gonna fall asleep :P

~Asa~

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This is ridiculous. But unfortunately, no one is laughing.

I am done.

I am done with this.

~Asa~