A strong-minded woman

Hi all, it's been awhile since I last blogged. I always write whenever I have something in my mind, most likely a burden to me, so that at least I would be relieved by sharing it to you all. I know it's not really a good idea because people do judge, they tend to think how I really love to complain so much. Actually, I do want people who read my writings find a lesson, so that they won't be repeating the same mistake like I did. Well, I have this dream since I was in junior high school, that I could someday bless people with my writings. And I hope, it's not merely a dream.

Just yesterday, I read an article with title "Why All Men Cheat on Loyal Women" written by Kevin Hart, you can google it or find it in wordpress of course. Well, since this article was written by a male, I guess he understands the circumstances a lot, so other males would not complain about how the article was written just to only please females and make them demand more from their partner. Admit it, you guys must be fed-up when reading an article written by females with title "100 things that gentlemen should do" or bla bla bla. Anyway, I guess, the article I mentioned above previously deserves attention from both men and women.

One thing written there made me realise how important it is to be a strong-minded woman. Being a strong-minded woman doesn't necessarily mean being stubborn, prideful or superior. No one likes this kind of woman, I bet. I realised a thing from my previous relationship, how I used to be so insecure and weak. I've just noticed this when I read the article yesterday. I used to be truly inferior, I never realised how much I worth, I let others hurt me again and again, thinking that I had to be real strong to endure the pain. But then I felt like I was getting slapped right in my face. Hello, I was not strong at all by giving others chance to disrespect me. I was really WEAK for letting myself fall into insecurity, treating my partner as if he was a KING and making myself think that LOVE needs SACRIFICE. It's kinda embarrassing though. I am actually a very stubborn and determined kind of person but I had this wrong perception about love. I used to think that whenever you love someone, anything else doesn't matter. You might be hurt, you might feel really horrible, you might cry a river, as long as you could make your partner happy, you would find your happiness as well. Crap, don't ever, ever, ever believe in something like that, I am telling you now. It is so TRUE that sacrifice is essential in love relationship, it's not wrong at all. But come to think of it, what kind of sacrifice is it? Are you really willing to do it for the rest of your life? Are you sacrificing alone? You know, having a relationship is a win-win situation. You make yourself happy first, then only you can make your partner happy. If there is only a person trying her/his ass off to keep the relationship whereas the other side has no intention of making effort, it's just useless. The boat would crack and eventually it would be sunken into the deepest ocean. Still wanna be a heroine who tried her best to save those two hearts at once? No, thanks, once is more than enough since nothing actually could be saved. And you would know, it is the time to wave goodbye to the wrong one so that you can experience a new hello :)

Remember, if you have fixed your heart and mind, learn to be a strong-minded woman, you will be ready for the new hello. I kept telling myself that I should love myself first in order to love others. I have to fulfil myself first in order to find a new love. My previous relationship taught me a lot about being strong and loyal, so even though it could be a mistake but it is something that made me move closer to the kind of woman I want to be. I won't regret it.

To conclude, a strong-minded woman is basically a confident, intelligent and independent individual who knows how WORTHY she is as a human being. She won't let others hurt her or disrespect her. She has her own meaning of love. She knows when to forgive and let go. She understands when to be tough and when to give in. She won't compromise liar and cheater just because she loves him so much. She loves herself first and makes herself happy. Only then she can do the same thing to others. It is not as simple as it is written here, but trying is not a sin, no?

To all guys out there, please tell her how valuable she is. Tell her if she's being weak and insecure. Treat her well like she's a queen if you want to be treated like a king. Do apologise first if you know you're wrong, throwing away your pride for good doesn't kill at all. If she can't leave you even after you hurt her so bad, tell her so, tell her to leave you just like he did to me because sometimes girls never realise how much stupid sacrifice they have made. Thanks to him, I am now a better me. I have finally understood the thing that he told me "you would understand someday". Thanks to him for saying "you deserve better". Thanks.

To all girls out there, I know I am not old or experienced enough to tell you this, but let's grow to be a strong-minded woman who is mentally mature and has integrity. If you're not happy in your relationship, or if you're always putting your partner's happiness before yours and you feel tortured by doing so, examine yourself first and discuss it with your partner. If he can't take it, then just leave it. You are worthy and demanding more than you could imagine. Find a man who knows your value, who respects you and who is willing to grow together in faith. You deserve the best.

ASA